Dog Days of August..

Ha Ha..good title..here it is August 15..I am sitting smack dab in the middle of the
desert which is the one place I never wanted to live, ever or again. Hey, but life takes these wierd twists and turns, doesn't it? If anything I have learned over this ever long life is nothing is in 'black and white', which is how I always like things. Black or white...no gray area. My life is a total gray area. But that's ok. It's how things are supposed to be:-/

One thing to never take for granted is good health. I don't have it, haven't for a long, long time, and things aren't looking up as far as that is concerned. I take things a day at a time, that's all I can do. Long term planning doesn't work anymore. My bestest girl Denise always loved that I could plan things, she is more spontaneous. I am not that person anymore. But it's ok. Those that understand, well that's a good thing, to be understood. Those that don't, well I can't help that then. Some days I feel up waking like I could take on the world, most days I feel like crap. Honest. True. I barely drve anymore, what would I do without the most wonderful, loving, understanding husband in the world?! He gets it. I don't miss driving. I am a bit afraid to drive honestly..my senses are a little dull, and I dont think my reaction time is all that great. So I leave the driving to him. If I HAVE to drive, I can. I just don't enjoy it or trust myself not to get in an accident.

I hate shopping. Loathe it. Grocery shopping, clothes shopping, most kinds of shopping. I have no extra money, I am chubby and clothes shopping is a freakin nightmare, and I dont really go anywhere, so what do I need. I have what I need. As long as I have nightgowns, I am fine. Honest. Groceries, well I have been trying to cook more as I seem to enjoy it a bit more, but anyone who knows me knows, I will do the dishes, I don't cook! I will pay someone to get groceries, or send Carl, lol! I get confused and don't know what to get, and frankly it just wears my raggedy ass out.

So..what do I do most of the day. Well, the computer, and my laptop esp..are my links to the world and all of you. I have been trying to go through boxes and put some things away, its truly overwhelming and most of you know how much stuff we have after all these years..You would think with as much friggin moving we have done we would have dumped most of it. Nope. Boys and Lainie, we will not leave it for you, I promise. We love you too much! We will only leave you what you want us to leave you, ok..no dumpsters needed:)

I have to nap most days...I am so tired all the time. My sleep issues are serious and I think thats the way it is, at least for now unless I get a miracle cure or something. But I try to get through each day best as I can. Carl and I are quite a team and have become each others best friends after all these years.

Im sure this is rambling..oh well..I ramble..ramble..

Over and out for now!
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