I don't even know where to start this post..
My wonderful mom, Rosemary, passed into our Father's arms in the early morning of April 12th. She had been ill and bedridden for over 2 years, and I know she was ready to pass into the next world, Heaven. She told me that many times. I know she is in our Father's loving arms, with her parents and siblings, and all the dogs and cats we have had in our lives that have passed on. I know there were so many people and animals that were there to welcome her.
The hard part is being left behind. I don't know how to grieve my mom. This is new to me.. I've lost my grandparents, but this is different. It's a wound that doesn't feel like it will heal. I know it's only been two weeks, I just have to learn how to grieve. One day at a time..
There will be a memorial/open house at my folks home in Desert Hot Springs on Thursday, May 12 from 3-7. I look forward to honoring my mom on that day and always. But on the other hand, its a day I dread. I will get through this with the help of Carl and my kids and grandkids, many friends and relatives.
My dad is just lost, lost, lost. It breaks my heart when I talk to him on the phone. I can't seem to find the right words to comfort him. that makes me sad, too.
This picture is of mom and I in happier times, drinking blueberry beer in St. George, Utah about 10 years ago.. Gosh I miss her sense of humor and smile.
Love you mom!!
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Just saw on facebook that you had a post up so I clicked right over here. You are so right, sometimes you just need to say how you feel in writing. That's what this blog thing is about and who knows, along with it making you feel better, you might help someone that needed to hear just what you had to say.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry you lost your Mom. I can tell you from experience, you will miss her everyday. My Mom died when I was 31 and there is rarely a day goes by that I don't think of her and miss her. I often wish I could share a triumph or failure with her, and I do, in my heart. My prayers will be with you as you get through her memorial. Let it be an uplifting experience. It is what she would want.
Keep posting and I will check in. I didn't realize you had posted some others so recently. Enjoyed reading a little about your life and how you met Carl. Hope soon you'll be posting some projects you are working on too, and pictures of your house as it comes along. Blessings to you, my friend.
Beverly has posted some wise words. Loss is so difficult and having lost my dad 16 years before mom was very hard. We just learn to go on somehow, trusting God, leaving our fears and worries to him. Focus on your memories and make a scrapbook of your mom and dad too. My friend Julie lost a really great scrapping/blogging friend Aleida and when she passed away unexpectedly in a car accident, Julie remembers her friend telling her how busy life was but a month earlier she vowed to take photos of herself with her kids so later in life they would have something to hang on to. Little did anyone know she would be gone a while later. Each and every month Julie snaps a photo of herself with her hubby and kids. It is her tribute to Aleida. She can not replace her friend but she can never forget her. I like music to help me through difficult days, Linda at PFF shared Storyteller by Morgan Harper Nichols. I also love two beautiful songs from church This is Amazing Grace by Phil Wickham and Blessed Assurance an old hymn written by Frannie Crosby. If you read her bio you will smile. She praised God in her troubles. I have been busy with wedding stuff and am really an emotional wreck. I just have to trust God. I am praying for you and wish you peace and calm. Your post was lovely and your mom was a wonderful lady. Keep in touch with your dad, he is hurting too and being married to someone as long as they were consumes a persons life. They come to the knowledge that life is better with the one they loved. I watched my mom talk about dad for 16 years. Keep posting, it is your journal of life. Hugs and Prayers.
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