Dogmom Diva

IT'S A NEW YEAR...

I felt the need as I was just sitting and watching TV with my husband tonight to do some blog writing.  I'm not really sure what's going to pop out of my typing fingers, as my mind is in a million jumbled pieces..

We are still in our rental home, no complaints at all, its a lovely home and has been an absolute blessing to us to be able to stay here for the last 4 months.  That said, it hasn't been easy..I go to look for something, and have to figure out which box I put it in.  Or maybe it's already boxed and in our Reno storage unit.  I tried to bring things here that I would probably need, but I missed the mark on somethings, and somethings I brought I haven't needed.  Guess that's how life goes.  Some stuff you need, other things you can live without. I guess my reality is that most of the stuff I brought over here has not been needed, and that means major purging when we get into our new house.  We donated and tossed a LOT of things, but obviously not enough.  I'm kind of tired of STUFF, is anyone else?

I did bring my sewing machine, threads, patterns here and do you think I have sewn one little thing.  NO.  I am not happy about that.  We have a little time left here, I have fabric here, I have my sewing machine.  I am going to sew something worthwhile before we leave.  And I will post it.  That's a promise to me.

Speaking of me..I've been reading a really good book called Borderlines.  my primary care doctor recommended it to me as I have issues with creating borders.  I have done a lot of thinking the last couple months about growing up, remembering what I can, most of it was good, a fairly happy childhood, but some of it was not good.  I am almost 7 years older than my sister, and 10 years older than my brother.  That right there, not through any fault of my parents, put me in the position of the sibling in charge.  How can that not affect one's thinking.  I had to grow up pretty fast as a teenager, as my mom was a working mom, in charge of babysitting my siblings after school and getting dinners on the table.  No wonder I don't like cooking very much!  Like I said, I blame no one, but the fact is I missed a lot..doing things teens do..going out with friends, stuff like that..I had to be an adult before I should have been.

I left home at age 19, really, one day I packed up what I had and left.  My mom called my great aunt and I went to stay with her 100 miles away.  My parents had moved to Palm Springs when I was 18 and wow was I a lost soul.  No friends, not much going on except a retail job at Robinson's in Palm Springs.  Thank goodness my mom made me get off my duff one day and go to the unemployment office.  That little job gave me something to do and earn a little bit of money. When I left to live with my great aunt, I got to reconnect with my school friends and also find a job with Pacific Telephone.  I had no car and worked in downtown L.A. but it was great.  I took the bus until I could save enough for a small downpayment on my first car, a blue brand new 1973 VW Superbeetle.  I loved that little car...FREEDOM. 

Lots of crazy things happened during those first 3 or 4 years, I liked my job and the people I worked with, hung out with friends, had a couple non serious boyfriends which didn't work out, but they weren't supposed to.  Ups and downs that a early 20's young adult goes through..Always broke but still having fun.  One day at work, it occurred to me that, wow, what are you ing to do with your life.  Needed to make some goals, and unfortunately, the entry level job I had wasn't going to help me achieve my goals.  I wanted to maybe one day,  buy a small condo, have a more stable life.  So I applied for a transfer to get a higher paying job.  Then one day, they called and my transfer had come through.  I was working in the Engineering department, and this new job was in the Accounting Dept.  I had to kind of laugh because my motto was always, if I have checks, I have money.  Me, in accounting? HA.  But I took it.  I was the secretary to one of the two Department managers in the building.  It was scary to start something new, but it was working out alright.  I always figured if I had a couple lunch buddies at work I was doing ok.  My boss seemed to like me.  It was working out pretty good. 

One of the hard things that during this time, friendships outside of work changed.. Friends were getting into relationships, new jobs, moving away...so most evenings were spent watching TV with my great aunt.  Yes, I had moved out of her house, but had moved back in a couple times, too.  Face it, all I owned would fit in the back seat of my VW, so it wasn't hard to move around, ha ha.  Anyway, she told me one night that I needed to get off my duff and get a social life.  So, a few days later I heard about a bowling team at work, and I thought, heck I can probably bowl.  Who knows.  Well that one decision turned my whole life around and upside down, because of joining the bowling league, I became closer acquainted with a guy at work that I thought, gee, he's cute but must have a girlfriend or wife.  But he always said good morning to me as we were walking into work most mornings, so who knew. 

That cute guy became my husband about a year later, and this upcoming April we will celebrate 39 years of marriage.  Who knew that joining a bowling league would find me the love of my life!  Crazy.

I'm not sure what the point of my story is to be honest.  I think I just had to type it out.  I know the point.  The point is I am blessed with a wonderful husband who always, always has my back, as I do his.  We've been going through some pretty crazy stuff the last few months, relationships have changed and one has disappeared.  But this man is always there for me.  I wish I had some fun pictures of that early life to post but most every picture I own is in storage.  One day soon after we get into our new home in Reno, I will post some pictures. 

One thing I need to add, the 39 years has not been with bumps, twists and turns.  But through it all there has been love.  And that is all you need.  Wasn't that a Beatles song?  Love is all you need.  Yes, its true.  It's not easy.  Keep working at it.  When all is said and done, we created a family of two great sons, two awesome daughters in law, and two cutie pie grandchildren. 

Well, I said I would be rambling..and I did... sometimes we just need to get things written down.  I could write a book, and maybe I will someday go into more detail on our family life and family relationships.  Yes, I could write a book.

To one and all..a Happy and Blessed 2016!